Fly Perspectives

The Struggle Within

The Fly Quote:
In every man’s heart there is a secret nerve that answers to the vibrations of beauty. ~Christopher Morley

The Fly Scenario:
She hit a nerve. I’m not precisely sure of the exact moment of contact, but somehow, someway she managed to strike a chord deep within me. I’m intrigued by her.

“Wait … did I just say that?”

Let’s look at the facts: We just met, and I barely know her name. Yet here I am; my mind consumed with plans and backup plans, on top of even more plans on how to get close to her.

“This is so not cool.”

It really isn’t. But the reality of the scenario is an all too familiar one for those who reach a point in their life where they yearn for the opportunity to meet Mr. or Ms. Right. Once you cross that threshold, there’s virtually no turning back, as each time you meet a great person, the inner conflict begins.

It’s the conflict between getting overly excited because you think this may finally be the one that you’ve been patiently (or sometimes impatiently) waiting for; and the other side which is overly cautious because you don’t want to get disappointed once again.

More often than not, the pessimistic (or realistic side, depending on how you look at it) wins out. There’s no way that side is going to let you get swept away in the moment … not again.

“Remember what happened last time.”

Yes I remember.

“You thought she was so perfect too.”

I know, I remember.

“Need I remind you of what happened?”

Didn’t I say I remembered?

And for a moment, your rational thinking kicks in, and order is restored. You keep reminding yourself that if it’s meant to be, it will be. So just take things one day at a time, and allow God to direct your path.

“Okay, I’m back to normal.”

But then he or she says or does something that totally makes you lose your cool, and suddenly you find yourself once again wanting to throw all caution to the wind … again. It could have been something as sweet as a “good morning” text message, or as thoughtful as a “how was your day” phone call. But with each communication, the two of you seem destined for some cosmic, romantic collision. Through your brief interactions, he or she seems to get you; almost as if they’ve somehow tuned into your frequency.

“Could this really be it? Should I let go, and completely open myself up to the possibility? Or will I end up mad at myself when it’s all said and done? Am I over thinking things?”

And thus the inner conflict continues…

Can anyone relate?